playlist: a cadence bittersweet

"take away love, and our earth is a tomb"
--robert browning

sometimes you wake up, and you want a different cadence.

sometimes you wake up, and you don't want to go for 180 bpm, or 90 strides per minute.

sometimes you wake up, and you don't want to count out the footstrikes, or turnover, or heart rate.

sometimes you wake up, and it's 5am, and before the alarm, and the clouds are low, and the air is still, and the world is quiet, and all you can do is to lie in bed and think and crawl into your clothes and wonder and fumble with your shoes and remember and stumble stumble stumble out your front door and then reflect.

and it's not on cadence.

it's on something else.

kina grannis: sukiyaki (kyu sakamoto cover)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ibxsiq-i384

and so you're running, thinking about the something everything nothing that's on your mind, and it takes over. first your arms and then your legs and then your hands and then your feet and then your breathing and then your heart...especially your heart.

and that's when it leads you down a different rhythm, following a different count, on another cadence, on miles beyond the miles that you are treading.

and there are so many.

david choi: apologize (one republic cover)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uS5iQzj9MJo

you don't know where you're going. and you don't care.

you're just on a path. going wherever paths always invariably ultimately were meant to go.

one memory after another. one step upon another. one mile after another.

and there are so many.

every avenue: where were you
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5ETes8QcQpQ

too many to understand it all. too many to make sense at all. just a jumble, just a blur.

all just mixed together.

one after another.

amber pacific: fall back into my life
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kChe5KZ8DqU

you go through them one by one.

from the beginning to the end.

all just mixed together.

patty griffin: rain
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pFbjE7NFmUI

it's not that you want to live it all over. it's not that you have sorrow or regret. it's not that you were hurt.

it's that you need to understand.

from the beginning to the end.

patty griffin: forgiveness
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XPe3VipKtt4

the memories.

the thoughts.

the feelings.

they come and go.

wherever and whenever and however they must go.

so that you can understand.

patty griffin: you are not alone
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0JcL5MnbqQ0

and the emotions.

the emotions come and go.

wherever and whenever and however they must go.

so that you can understand.

james blunt: you're beautiful
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SwpbtmFK4BM

there is no exhaustion. there is no anguish. there is no sorrow. there is no pain. those limits were passed long ago.

all that's left are memories and miles.

so that you can understand.

bill withers: ain't no sunshine
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n5ouyk21II8

things happen the way they happen. people are the way they are. hearts feel the way they feel. it's just life.

this is just life...the treading of footsteps on a path. wherever paths always invariably ultimately were meant to go. to places that you cannot understand.

and all you know is that all you can know and all that you will know and all you were meant to know are the memories and miles and memories and miles and memories and miles and memories and miles so many as many as one after another one step after another running running running beneath the passing of your feet and the feelings of your heart and the rhythms that it beats.

and you realize then, in a cadence that is most bittersweet, that the only thing to understand is that there is nothing to understand.

u2: all i want is you
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wzOwxKyTJMI

sometimes you wake up, and it's 5am, and before the alarm, and the clouds are low, and the air is still, and the world is quiet, and all you can do is to lie in bed and think and crawl into your clothes and wonder and fumble with your shoes and remember and stumble stumble stumble out your front door and then reflect.

on memories and miles.

on memories and miles.

on memories and miles.

and nothing else.

shaenon: time after time (cyndi lauper cover)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OquI5mdDnqg